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- December 9, 2015 at 7:24 pm#38081AnonymousInactive
Well I have read many different sites and this is the first time I have had any courage to actually write something. I take/do 2 30mg oxycodone at least 10 times a day, sometimes up to 15…. I know that is alot and trust me its a very expensive addiction as well. I have been on them for about 2 years really heavy but have been taking pain meds for over 5 years. I tried tapering and it was actually working I was down to between 8-12 pills a day (which is still alot but better) but for some reason I started taking more and more and more until I was right back where I started. Nobody in my family knows, my husband doesnt know, although I think he is suspicious bc he found one in his truck and of course I played dumb saying “what is that”. I have a 10 year old daughter and a family who loves me very much. We are having financial problems now bc of my addiction and that alone makes me feel horrible but at the same time helpless. I have experienced the start of withdraw but never got past day 2. I REALLY want to get clean and stay clean but it is sooo hard. I am going to start tapering again but does that really help I have a friend who only does 1 30mg a day and still cant stop taking that, well she splits it up in 4 doses, so how can I possibly do it from the dose I am on. I recently had sort of a breakdown and took a handfull of xanax and then went to work ( I am self employed) so I am sure now everyone knows there is some kind of problem but they just dont know what. My husband just took me home and put me to bed and didnt really saymuch about it. I just would like some advice or support or anything at all you may have to say.
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