I’m 4.5 years sober. I was in AA for 18 months but left when I had a baby and found it hard to attend.

I started therapy a year ago, for other mental health issues. I’m about as mentally well as I’ve ever been in my life.

Yesterday I ate a tirismisu, which had enough alcohol in that I could taste it. It was lovely, it always was my favouite pudding. I don’t think the alcohol did anything to me, although I do still have occasional fleeting cravings.

Is it stupid? Is the slippery slope sometimes started with pudding?

I’m well out of the AA loop now, my sponsor and I parted on bad terms, so I don’t have any real life support, apart from my therapist who I’ll discuss this with.