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- September 13, 2013 at 3:33 pm#30971AnonymousInactive
It has taken away everything that I love again. I am devastated. I have lost the love of my life. I have never met anyone who meant as much to me as she did. Now I’ve thrown it all away. I’m so sick of this. It’s taken everything from be before. But this time it’s different, this time it hurts so bad I can’t even think. It’s insanity. I’m almost 30 days sober, but I know nothing will change what I’ve done now.
Now I’m living with my folks again and I can’t even get out of bed or do anything. I want to give up so bad, but then I get angry when I think about what alcoholism has done to me. I get so angry it makes me turn red. I never want to give in to this thing. I hate it so much with every fiber of my being. god help me.September 13, 2013 at 3:40 pm#160614AnonymousInactive
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings….
🙂 Congratulations on your sober time!
Yes…alcohol takes so much away
but sobreity gives us unexpected gifts.
I am sorry to know you are going thru
such a bad time….HugsSeptember 13, 2013 at 4:58 pm#160619AnonymousInactive
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings traveler, there are programs out there that can help you through this time. I know the hell of alcoholism, I walked hand in hand with the demon for many years.September 13, 2013 at 5:10 pm#160620AnonymousInactive
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings Traveller. This is a great place to find support, and yes, to vent as well if you need to.
I also am dealing with ‘the wreakage of my past’ and it can be a b*tch.
Glad to hear that you are sober, that in itself is HUGE!
Have a cup of coffee and hang around for a while.
TedSeptember 13, 2013 at 6:02 pm#160621AnonymousInactive
Welcome aboard. Lots of support here. Glad you have joined us on this journey. Sounfds like you are feeling pretty rough…The fog will cler and the rough spots will pass.
Hang in there ..
Keep us posted on how you are doing..
many hugsSeptember 13, 2013 at 6:18 pm#160616AnonymousInactive
Just wanted to put out my hand also, traveler. You aren’t alone. We do care.
Please keep posting.September 13, 2013 at 6:23 pm#160617AnonymousInactive
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings. PM me any time. I too felt like you some years back. I have found recovery and joy in AA. You can do it again. Before AA I promised myself time and time again I would never ‘give in’ but I did not have t he tools or a program or a support system *of other addicts and alcoholics* to help me resist. I now can resist, and I have the wililngness to resist because these things are in palce thanks to the program of AA.
Good luck – google ‘the promises of AA’ – there IS a solution, I promise you
xSeptember 13, 2013 at 6:34 pm#160615AnonymousInactive
Pain was a major motivational factor in my recovery too. I never want to experience that kind of pain again, hence alcohol will never have a place in my life .September 13, 2013 at 6:54 pm#160618AnonymousInactive
Glad you’re here traveler! Reach out for support, and accept when it’s given. You’re not alone in this.
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