Been clean for almost 4 years and relapsed about a month ago. Had 2 relapses, approximately 2 weeks apart from each other. Have not used in 6 days. The fear of using now seems to be scaring me straight right now. It is amazing how relapsing can ruin your life. Using after being clean for so long has had a huge negative impact on my life. I am so down, and struggling on every level to pull myself out of this. Crack has such a negative stigma, and if you smoke crack people think you are a monster. Very little compassion for the crack smokers.