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- August 3, 2012 at 9:45 pm#27656AnonymousInactive
Hello again everyone!! Some of you know me from about 8 months ago when I kicked an 8 pill a day norco addiction by using the taper method. Well… I’m embarrassed to say I had a relapse about 4 months after being clean 🙁 I really thought I had the stuff beat and then one day I decided to down a few. It was so random… no single incident that caused me to do it. I really thought I could take them again on MY terms. That didn’t happen. In fact I ramped up quicker then ever exceeding my old habit and increased up to about 12-14 per day. I could see myself slipping but I just couldn’t stop it. I know now that I’ll never be able to go back to being a casual user. It also only took about a month or so for the heavy depression to set back in just like old times. This drug is sooOOOooo F’d up.
If I didn’t go through this once before I’d probably be hitting my doctor up for anti-depressants. However I know better, and I know when I’m clean that this feeling goes away. So I’m back doing the taper thing… I’m down to 3.5 a day, and I can practically taste being free and clean. I had some decent withdraws about 8/day thru 5/day but it hasn’t been that bad lately. I remember the same thing happening to me the last time. Kinda wierd that the heavy wd’s happen while I’m still using at higher amounts but when I hit the lower doses they almost go away = I’m having some basic aches and pains but I’m doing fine using over the counter stuff. I do have some insomnia issues but they we here long before my addictions. I’ve been taking ambien to help but I know that’s not a permanent solution.
I at least feel so much more educated about my addiction which helps alot. And I owe that education to this forum. I now know what it takes to beat this thing, and this message board is such an incredible source of inspiration and support. I could have never beat this addiction without everyone’s help last time. Wish me luck and here’s to being clean again. I’ll talk with you all soo 🙂August 3, 2012 at 9:58 pm#106305AnonymousInactive
Thank you for sharing your story…Especially that you experienced how we have a progressive disease – even when we are not using….I have been clean for 7yrs (24hrs at a time based on my spiritual condition) and when I get off track and stop doing the things I know I need to do to stay clean, I am just as likely to have those strange mental twists that will tell me the same thing you just talked about…Oh I must be cured by NOW..maybe I can just have a few beer…Oh my back hurts..just a few T3’s….But I know I’d go straight to Coke and probably OD..it’s out of my system and I’d probably do the amount I did before…and more and more and more and end up on the street this time..not just an “upscale” user.
I hope you stay and am so glad to hear the commitment in your post – Welcome back and post often..there will be others along soon who probably you’ve spoken with..I’ve not been on 12 Step National Meetings long..but look forward to sharing Recovery with you
:Val004: JanniAugust 3, 2012 at 10:26 pm#106292AnonymousInactive
I am so happy to see you! I’ve left a post or two inquiring about your whereabouts, so I’m glad to see you here.
At least you caught it, and your getting back on track. That is what is important right?
How’s that baby doing?
You’ll be okay, I’m sure of it!
Good to see you!August 3, 2012 at 10:48 pm#106299AnonymousInactive
DWI, you’re the best. Thanks for remembering… the baby is doing great. She is such an active little thing. I seem to be blessed with a little one that doesn’t require much sleep… she probably takes a couple 20 minute naps during the day then goes to bed at like 9 pm and wake up like 2 twice during the night. She’s like the energizer bunny.
I’m glad to be back posting.. gotta cook some dinner cause the wife’s not much of cook… be back soon 🙂August 3, 2012 at 10:54 pm#106293AnonymousInactiveT1 wrote:DWI, you’re the best. Thanks for remembering… the baby is doing great. She is such an active little thing. I seem to be blessed with a little one that doesn’t require much sleep… she probably takes a couple 20 minute naps during the day then goes to bed at like 9 pm and wake up like 2 twice during the night. She’s like the energizer bunny.
I’m glad to be back posting.. gotta cook some dinner cause the wife’s not much of cook… be back soon
When I was detoxing meth, and I was having a hard time, I’d pick up my little dog and look in her eyes.
You do that with your little angel, and you’ll be clean in no time.
I no how much she means to you.
:dance1a:lol, just wait till she hits her 2’s! Then when she is 13! Your going to be on your toes for a long time! LMAO!:banana:
Too much good and positive stuff going on in your life to get off track.:c031:Keep posting, you did great when you were here posting a lot.
I know I’d be lost without posting.
Let us help keep you accountable for awhile. Got it? 😉August 4, 2012 at 2:41 am#106300AnonymousInactive
Will do. I’ll be down to 3/ per day tomorrow. Home…. stretch… :):)August 4, 2012 at 3:10 am#106294AnonymousInactive
Stay strong my friend, You can do it!August 4, 2012 at 3:15 am#106285AnonymousInactive
Keep it up. :banana:August 4, 2012 at 11:23 am#106301AnonymousInactive
Last night I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night with back aches. Yay! Things are gettin’ better. Mood is getting better a bit everyday. And I do have a lot positive stuff going on DWI, (a few negs i’d rather not share) but your right, way to many positives. I don’t really know why I started again but doesn’t matter cause I’m “Done With It”… hehe.August 4, 2012 at 5:30 pm#106295AnonymousInactive
Yea, we all have the negatives, but we can deal with those.
We live for the positives!
Your sounding better already! Keep it up!August 4, 2012 at 7:02 pm#106291AnonymousInactive
Just wanted to drop by and let you know I read your thread and its great to see you back, T1.
Your avatar always makes me smile.August 5, 2012 at 6:40 pm#106296AnonymousInactive
I could have swore I just left a note to you here?
How are you doing? How’s today going?August 5, 2012 at 8:15 pm#106302AnonymousInactiveDone-With-It wrote:I could have swore I just left a note to you here?
How are you doing? How’s today going?
I feel very weak today and to make matters worse my allergies are really bad right now and nothing seems to help. I hope I feel better tomorrow. Mentally I’m not constantly thinking about using anymore which is a good thing. I’m also glad I’m not spending any more money on those stupid pills. Financially it was getting out of hand and it was making me feel sooOOoo guilty.
DWI, you continue to rock my sox and thanks for rememering me Alera 🙂August 5, 2012 at 10:20 pm#106288AnonymousInactive
So why not talk to your dr about depression and geting help for it? Anyway good luck :hug:
MatreAugust 5, 2012 at 11:24 pm#106297AnonymousInactive
Ughhh, Allergies they suck! They do, when it’s hard to breathe that can make life difficult. Mine are pretty bad, but a friend of mine has them so bad.
If you get like rosemary, or lavender, etc, boil it with water and then turn the heat off, and hold your head over the pan with a towel that will help some.
Also the lemonade thing works good for allergies.
It’s written by Stanley burrows, it’s water, cayene pepper, lemon juice, and pure maple syrup.
Hang in there kid, give that baby a big hug for me, lol, she is too darned cute!
Also you may want to check with “Splendra”, she has a website with a lot of idea for homeopathic stuff, maybe something in there for allergies.
I think it is,
Talk to you soon!
Your doing great, Hang in there!
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