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- March 19, 2016 at 9:13 pm#38843AnonymousInactive
Hey guys, as you may have read, I’ve been craving my ass off these last few weeks and it dawned on me why…It not just the ‘changing of the seasons’ or the fact that the anniversary of my moms death is approaching…..I’M BORED OUT OF MY SKULL!!!
My ‘pothead’ husband is content just sitting around getting high. We never go anywhere or do anything and I’m sick of it. I mean, when I was getting high, I never wanted to go do anything but score drugs and get high. Well, I’m not that person anymore, but nothing, I mean NOTHING has changed at home. This is no way to live. How would he feel if he were the one who went to rehab and got clean, yet I was still getting high?
I believe this is the reason I’ve been wanting to use here lately…and I’m not really craving the opiates….it’s the crack/cocaine that I’m craving, the thrill of chasing it down, scoring it and smoking/snorting it. I’m just being honest.
I’ve just been so depressed here lately, every day is the same. I can’t go on like this forever. It just feels like I’m starting to lose my grip.
Thanks for letting me share.
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