By which I mean someone in my own age bracket (mid 30’s)? The problem I’m having is, the sober part of me is still emotionally only about 18. If I speak to someone who is in their 30’s it’s a bit of a shock when they come across as adults. (Gross over simplification).

I’m not sure if I can deal with the physical implications of a girl who’s my age. That sounds awful, but it’s actually (I believe) a reflection of how I see myself which is as something which is decaying… Doesn’t that sound awful? I know from talking to recovery buddies that the girls feel they age/decay quicker than men do anyway, and I’m sort of buying into that.

I also have always had the sort of body image issues which hate fat, I would do a passable impression of an anorexic if it weren’t for bacon, and again that’s reflected in how I see women.

I wasn’t sure where to put this, but I guess it’s a reaction to becoming sober and missing out key developmental years due to being drunk, so seemed reasonable to go in the alc section.