I have wanted to drink since 12/23. I managed not to, spending the last four days eating tons of food and LOTS of sugar. I would dutifully talk myself out of going to the store and buying beer and cigarettes over and over and kept reading this forum-but I still want to drink.

Most of the threads seem to say that cravings pass rather quickly, but that isn’t the case for me. I ordered beer and cigarettes this morning with my online grocery shopping. So now I am trying to talk myself into pouring them down the drain when they get here. I am trying to keep going as I have not drank for 2 months and 1 week, but I see that I am setting myself up to fail by ordering beer.

I want to know how to change my thinking so I can stop obsessing over beer and cigarettes (they go together for me). I am 35 and I know that this 2 months I’ve managed to stay sober is my big chance to change, I don’t want to blow it!