Thanks to all of you that have sent me pm’s showing concern it means alot to me, i just got home yesterday after having to stay out longer than usual at work . Had to make up for the month on the islands, not cheap down there.:c029: As far as my sobriety is concerned i am sober but still having problems connecting to my higher power and changing my thoughts on what, or who my higher power actually is. Was always taught that it was God (a old man with a staff and white hair and beard) or Jesus (a young man with a beard) and that if you did certain things you would burn in hell or if you were good you would live in heaven.In other words i was scared of God pretty much my whole upbringing, just my ideas of what a higher power was to me back then and what i was taught..Silly huh ? oh well ..