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  • #163991
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    good thread guys! another recovering addict told me a long time ago to just make the pact that USING IS NOT AN OPTION. period. no matter what. i tried every other method possible, and always seemed to find a reason or an excuse to use. and then finally just conceded to the wisdom of others….she had 9 years clean, i couldn’t get 9 days……….

    i was clipping along about 3 months, til my partner got bright ideas and brought some crap home. i let that be a good enough excuse. thing is i DID have options…….i didn’t HAVE to use. granted it’s a bit tougher when it’s IN your house…..however i could have removed myself to a safe place, or made him leave. i learned from that.

    so today, no matter what, using is NOT an option. i get to be in complete and total charge of that decision today. i used to believe that getting clean wasn’t the tought part, staying clean was……….it is however easier by far to STAY clean. if it’s NOT an option, there is not debate, no inner conversation, no nagging thoughts of maybe………..makes life a whole lot easier!!!!!!!!

    #163965
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    Myself, …I must say that i’ve been having a tough time staying clean…I am clean , but the temptation to use is upon me heavy.
    I have 11 months and 1 day clean.

    I know it would be stupid to use but i have to be honest about what I’m going thru ..
    depression and worry about the future.
    I’m also feeling ripped off that I can’t use.
    I find my mind wandering at times trying to somehow justify using…
    like for example – my past has been crummy and embarassing , I think this is why I islolate.
    Sometimes I want everyone to go away, but Im fighting that because I need support just like anyone else.

    Anyhow ….I’m clean but struggling. Thats where I’m at today.

    love Joe

    #163996
    Anonymous
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    Checking in :bbd: 🙂

    #163984
    Anonymous
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    Sounds like a lot of us struggle a lot with temptations.

    For any long timers checking in – does it ever ease up? I know better than to think it goes away, but do the thoughts lessen over time?

    #163966
    Anonymous
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    My good friend gave me some good advice today …

    Get on you knees and pray that ~the obsession to use~ goes away.

    So I did just that and I feel better.

    Something else Im going to start doing . When I’m jonesin I’m going to tell someone…start putting my hand up at NA … ect

    20 years clean or 1 minute clean its one day at a time for all of us.

    #163992
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    ya know emmer, i believe that our Higher Power WILL lift the obsession, the minute WE are ready to let it go…..that you feel better says SO much about your recovery! i’m so encouraged with your recovery……one day at a time, no matter what………..thank you for sharing your struggles and how you work thru them…….

    #163977
    Anonymous
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    Oct 9th will be 5 months for me..

    #164013
    Anonymous
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    no really clean days yet! working on it.

    useage has been cut way, way, down though.

    i bet i’ve gained 15 pounds…..i’ll need to go visit the overeaters group i guess, but not before i visit the anxiety group and all those other that apply.

    now……i’ve checked in and checking out!

    #163974
    Anonymous
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    @emmer 1501802 wrote:

    What a cool thread !!!

    I have 31 more days till my 1 year.

    I haven’t told anyone at na… but I thing I’m going to.

    Deep down …I love attention and support. Still a struggle at times but I’m doing way better.:23:

    Hey Joe, come back to Christians in recovery and share with us on you birthday….eleven months and counting one day at a time……….my how time flies.

    #163985
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    Emmer, at my meeting with about 10 minutes left the “moderator” always asks if anyone has a burning desire to use and to talk about it. I love that. One time when I think I wouldn’t have said anything, it prompted me to; it helped alot.

    You know what else I noticed? EVERY meeting when that question is asked, someone raises their hand. We are not alone.

    P.S. Checking in

    #163967
    Anonymous
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    I don’t know if this is the type of thing to ask for on this thread but today i feel almost sick to my stomach with anxiety.
    I’m clean and I’m fighting it, but could use some prayers.

    #163939
    Anonymous
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    Emmer, I wish I knew what to say about the anxiety. About a year after kicking dope most of my anxiety went away. I’m hoping you’ll get some relief soon.

    #164023
    Anonymous
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    Emmer –

    Sorry you’re having a rough time and I hope the anxiety goes away soon.

    Hugs and prayers coming at ya!

    Amy

    #163943
    Anonymous
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    I am still hanging in there just waiting around and doing my time till my apt. in mid-Oct.

    emmer…sorry you are feeling bad and sending you my prayers that it lifts soon!
    It is a crisp, sunny day here and the leaves are falling! Not sure how it is where your at but how about a brisk walk in the fresh air?? Sometimes even just to sit outside in the sunshine for about 15-minutes makes me feel better!
    Eat something light {easy on the tummy!} and try to focus on feeling better!
    Take care,
    Jane

    #163973
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    @emmer 1506762 wrote:

    I don’t know if this is the type of thing to ask for on this thread but today i feel almost sick to my stomach with anxiety.
    I’m clean and I’m fighting it, but could use some prayers.

    Just passing by today and spotted this post…………
    Emmer (and Jane too) – I think that anxiety is perfectly natural – its something that everyone suffers from – but its how you deal with it that makes the difference? Maybe try to deal with what is making you anxious? Deal with it as best you can and then chuck it – for you can do no more. And what is the point in wasting time and energy on something which you cant do anymore to change? The “what ifs”? If it continues to irk you then try doing something totally different which takes you out of yourself – something physical like walking or running – will actually change your state of mind. Do whatever it takes. Force yourself. Somehow – addicts have got to learn to take control of their minds again – or else they will forever be controlled by those awful feelings of anxiety. Forever controlled by anxiety and fear? A prisoner to those irrational thoughts/feelings? What a terrible life sentence? I cannot tell you how important I think this is. For me – I think it holds the key to success and re-gaining control of a life which has become uncontrollable due to addictive behaviour and thinking.
    It’s not easy. But you can do it. And I do believe that you have to learn to do this to finally break the terrible hold that addiction has. You really have to fight for this -fight for the control of your own mind. Once you are back in the driving seat again -then I truly believe that you will be relieved of these awful anxious feelings which I think are produced largely by the fear of being out of control.
    Emmer – I know you are a Christian – so perhaps this will not be so difficult to understand. After all – prayer is a discipline in its own right…………. and surely the same approach as applied to prayer will work in this instance too?
    Thinking of you ……………..
    woops

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