Days 17-23 of sobriety seemed particulary diffucult- decidedly more difficult than days 1-5. I am no longer pushing thru physical symptoms and am forced to confront the emotional and psychological efffects of floating thru 15 years on a swamp of alcohol, enjoying the ride but never contemplating what I was forgetting under the murky surface.
The swamp seems fully drained now, and I plod amongst the relics and shambles of ignored relationships, family matters, business issues, and pointed internal conflicts. The “foggles” I wore for so long are off and the clarity is mesmorizing, almost intimidating.
I can see why people in AA mark day thirty with a chip. That’s when the work of recovery really begins. I just have a glimpse of it a week or so early.