Today is my second clean day. Unyet I want to use also, the internal battle going is hard, I can’t concentrate, my life around me is being neglected. If I want to not use so bad, how can using seem so appealing? I dont want to keep wanting to use, I want to just be ok, its like I have this war going between truth and untruth, I can’t seem to look forward to living without the thought of using. Using is what keeps me going, so why don’t I just use? I dont understand it. Can someone offer some advice? I’m not sure I can make day 3.