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- May 11, 2016 at 10:55 pm#39264AnonymousInactive
I am doing well, but had a craving Saturday night that was really tough!!!! Like all I could think about was alcohol, and I kept thinking if I just had one beer this feeling would go away and then I could relax. It lasted for hours!!! Anyways luckily it passed and I’ve been there MANY times before, but was wondering if these type of strong cravings will ever go away cause quite frankly they scare me.
I really wanted to go to a meeting but by that point there were none. I also missed two meetings, Friday and Saturday because I was sick but I REALLY felt the need to go to one and still haven’t made it yet. Everyday this week has been tough but I will get to one in the am tomorrow, I know I have too. I know I have to treat this like any other disease and that is my medicine to keep me better. Also, I need a sponsor, gonna have to get on that this week for sure, but I just want to be comfortable with whoever that will be and I am not there yet.
Anyways just wondering if anyone has any tricks on beating their cravings, other then eating chocolate or junk food, but if that’s what it takes then so be it for now…I just hate cravings cause for awhile you feel so strong and happy, and then they come out of nowhere and it can be very hard, this is when I HATE battling this crap the most.I just want to feel peace and I know I have such a long way to go..
I am feeling o.k for now, but I wonder how long will it last, earlier I did feel a twinge of craving, but thankfully it left when I came here.I would go to a meeting tonight, but my husband is out.
I just know that I CANNOT drink again, but the past proves how weak I can be at times. When I crave it’s like I am not even myself anymore and the addiction takes over. I minimize my problem and find myself rationalizing a drink, I hate it, I know it’s wrong, but it’s powerful. Well I guess I am just gonna have to be stronger, what else can I do? The steps will work though right? lol…sorry i know I sound like a crazy person, but that’s my anxiety getting the best of me, I just really, really, really don’t want to mess my sobriety up again and the cravings can be so strong I don’t like feeling that way.
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