This is more of a rant than anything else…

I’m still hanging in there. I’ve been sober for 60 days now. In some ways it seems like it’s been a long time. It also feels like it’s not very much time at all. I think it’s because I’ve still got a long ways o go in my recovery.

Something I’ve been thinking about a lot today has been about how I’m still having strong cravings. It doesn’t happen nearly as often as it used to… but I just seek to get into a funk somedays. And the thought that seems to be stentor nagging awe at me is the idea that I could aleviate these feelings by using. Its a bit annoying to feel this way because I’ve been feeling pretty good lately, and I haven’t really had any cravings. It’s like this feeling is coming out of nowhere.

I’m not even sure what s causny my funky feeling. I’m not really depressed (I suffer from constant mild depression), and I’ve got plenty of things Incan do to keep me busy (though I’ve been feeling like putting those things off today). I think I just feel like I need a break. Whatver it is… I don’t like it.