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- September 21, 2013 at 4:16 pm#31037AnonymousInactive
as I contemplate my journey into sobriety I have noticed some changes in me that I find rather interesting that I thought I would share.
When I was drinking it was all about me, I really did not care much about anyone or anything unless I could gain some thing from it or them.
When I first started on the road to sobriety I was still my main focus, but for different reasons then when I was drinking. I had to focus on me, I had to learn who & what I was, I knew I was a drunk & unless I changed me I would drink again and continue to be a drunk. I had to learn who I was and what I needed to change about me in order to stay sober. These things I learned with the help of my sponsor and my HP.
Well as I learned about myself and those things I needed to change about me, with the help of my sponsor and my HP I have begun to change me, I am no longer a drunk, as I have changed more I have noticed that suddenly it really is not about me any more, it is now about we, I have become part of the greater world, I find myself thinking far more of others and thier wants and needs then of my own.
When it comes to me now my primary focus is staying sober! Why? Because I am useless to others and myself as a drunk.
Yes I am still me, but I am now part of the world and trying to be part of the solution today instead of part of the self centered probelm I was in my past.
I still am amazed by just how happy I am giving away what I have found and how much more I have as I give it away.
If I was still drinking and read the above I would say that dude has bats in his belfry because none of what he is saying makes sense!!!
Does this make sense to anyone else, or am I crazy?September 21, 2013 at 9:00 pm#162102AnonymousInactive
Taz, That makes a LOT of sense.
I can understand I turned to booze to self-medicate, escape..it was always “MY” pain, “MY” heartache.. “MY” stress..September 21, 2013 at 9:33 pm#162099AnonymousInactive
Makes sense to me. Reminds me of those promises I keep hearing about at every meeting. And I know the first few times I heard them, I thought “Yeah, so what’s the big deal.” Course that was before any of them had started to come true as promised. Kinda like the whole serenity thing. Can’t miss what you’ve never had? Then you get some and you wonder how you did without it.
Thanks for sharing what’s happening in your recovery. All our boats rise together.September 21, 2013 at 10:11 pm#162101AnonymousInactive
Yeah sort of feelin the same way tonite…..where is my serenity tonite?September 22, 2013 at 2:44 am#162100AnonymousInactive
We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude towards life will change…… I am getting better, but I’m still on my 4th step. Although, I have already seen some promises come true, in a lot of instances my first thought is always alcoholic. A lot of the time it’s still all about me. I want my first thought to be about others, but in all honesty it usually isn’t. I will say that the more I do service work whether it’s chairing meetings, taking out the trash, cleaning up coffee pots or cleaning out the ash trays, it gets me in an “others” state of mind. And that’s always a good thing. Sometimes it can be as simple as giving someone a ride to a meeting or a ride home. The bottom line is that I have to put myself out there. It won’t come to me. Ever notice how the folks that rush in and out of meetings continue to look unhappy and discontented?
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