I wonder how many people come here after their second glass of wine, as I am now. I was without alcohol and drugs for 10 years, went on a year-long bender, went without alcohol for four years again, and now I am currently on a bender for 2 weeks. The difference now is I have two beautiful children who depend on me. My two year-old is standing next to me right now watching tears stream down my face, saying, “It’s okay, mama”.
Why am I afraid of AA? It’s obviously not working on my own. And why did this happen? Why do I think I can drink? I need some support. Encouragement. Azz-whoopin’ Should I come back when I’m sober??