I was doing well. In my drug use, it was always under my own initiative and usually alone….with few exceptions.
Today I got a call from a former using buddy asking me to join him.
Now my mind is with him and the drug. I had never really thought about this and did not expect it. Now I feel like it all can go to pieces because my mind is there. I have some idea of how to protect myself against my self–but now I realize there is a world out there that can get to me.