Hey.. For the last couple of years I’ve been using oxycontin about once every couple weeks. However, the last 2 months I have found a cancer patient who was willing to give me their entire perscription of oxys. So for the last 2 months I have been doing between 80mg – 120mg every day.

I hate the feeling of only being motivated to do things when I’m high, so I want to get off of these things ASAP. I haven’t slept in the last 40 hours. I’ve taken like 4 sleeping pills and they didn’t budge me. I took a 10mg valium about 3 hours ago which has chilled out the anxiety, but didn’t put me to sleep. When I tried to sleep earlier today I was tossing and turning like crazy, couldn’t keep still. Is that the RLS people are talkin about?

Other than not being able to sleep and a slight headache, the symptoms haven’t been too terrible as of yet. I haven’t had any naseau or diahrea or anything like that yet.. But I’m sure it’s coming soon. I also took a multivitamin a few hours ago which may have helped slightly. I’m gonna take a couple more sleeping pills and see if I can sleep a bit.

I’ve been watching john lennon music videos on youtube, and that has lifted my spirits tremendously. Thankyou john I will always love you.

I’ve had alot of trouble with lots of different drugs in the past, and this is the end of it all for me. I wanna go clean clean clean. Wish me luck.