In the beginning of week 3 now. I feel like the only thing night and day I think about is alcohol. I feel like I think of it more now than when I wasn’t sober. It’s distracting majorly from my school work which is so so important. I know my health and recovery is more important but the stress and anxiety from being so behind at uni makes me feel like I’m more likely to slip back into that life.
The thing is I’m happy being sober. I’m feeling healthier, feeling better about myself and I don’t have a desire to be drunk. But I can’t stop thinking about it. My body is craving it physically and I need this to slow down or stop because I don’t know how much longer I can last.