I’m not sure if it’s me or the meeting. Last night I was bored and wanted to leave. Part of the reason was there were no men there to pay attention to me (I talked about this on another thread and am trying to work on it.)

After the meeting the secretary (he is also a friend of mine) pulled me aside and asked me what was wrong….now that I am writing this, I think I made sure he knew something was wrong so I could get SOME attention.

…sometimes the truth justs start spilling out when I write this stuff down. No wonder people advocate journaling.

Why do I want/need so much attention? I don’t remember being this way before sobriety – I could take it or leave it, but now I almost crave it.

Tomorrow is my 90 days – does this have anything to do with it?