I have been looking all overr the place for the past year and a half for help to stop drinking. And now after two rehab centres, being looked after by a friend, countless AA meetings and tons of therapy, I have made the choice to stop drinking. The bizarre thing is that once I put my mind to it, it wasn’t half as hard as I thought it would be (of course I am trying to mentally prepare myself for the day the urge will be overwhelming).
It is early days for me yet, but this time it feels real. I am living on my own — as a result of my drinking my husband and children hopefully temporarily moved out — and I never thought I would be able to be this honest with myself. I though as long as I faked it for long enough my famiy would move back in and then I could stop drinking. Wow. Just writing this makes me realise how crazy, selfish my behaviour has been in trying to hold on to alcohol.
I have a mental block when it comes to AA — or anything organised really! But luckily I have friends in established recovery. I guess I don’t have anything really to add to the forum, just wanted to get a few things out and maybe find others who have had similar experiences/rebllious (or, em, different) personalities such as mine.
This site has been so helpful to me. I have done very little posting but the reading has been invaluable. Many thanks to all!