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- September 30, 2013 at 3:30 am#31133AnonymousInactive
I’m whipped, Puréed, stewed and baked. What a mess. I stumble from one disaster to another. I live in a state of embarassment. Me shades are drawn. I’m peekin’ out to see if my truck is in the drive. Don’t know where I was last night… Its funny! Woot!
Dumb crap, yeah? Better to laugh than cry though. Feels better that way. I do what I have to to function. I can roll with my goofy attitude. Just let the crap slide off my back. Pop ’em the bird and grin, baby.
Trying to be serious about sobriety broke me. I made my meetings, read from the “big book” and prayed to my higher power. Then, BAM… I get hit with a craving and its off to the races. **** makes me so mad. I think the last meeting inspired my most recent jag. Speaker went into a delicious description of the lovely gold/bronze hue of my favorite smooth as silk bourbon, Made it sound quite tasty, he did.
BUT, HEY ITS ALL MY FAULT!!! Yes’m, I gots to work the steps. Surely one of these tattooed, muscle shirted, gold chain dripping, puffed up Guidos’ can help me plot my path to recovery nirvana. I always wanted a pompous ass pimp for a spiritual advisor. Don’t mean to blast my AA meetings. They just mirror the average, mind washed, Bushtard knucle dragging amoebas that pass for humans in our corn dog culture.
Goddamn, I hate my sorry lot. I don’t want to recover. I want to sit my ass down in the privacy of my home and burn fatties and chug booze. Thats my God given right as a free born man dammit. I value my freedom.
*Sigh*. I’m old and I’m leaking though. I can shake my fist at the heavens and curse the Gods forever. I’ll still end up a cripled old pissy drunk.
God bless. I have to fellowship with drunks. Seriously, thats a fate almost worse than death. You arrogant, self absorbed lame ass losers. Put that freakin’ mirror away, punk.
I will go down laughing though. I choose to spit at the wind. You sober AA’s better not scoff at my troubles. I may be your sponsor someday. Yeah, you think ol’ Joe will never get sober. But I will. Somehow.
In the end I will win. I plan to laugh the entire freakin’ trip.September 30, 2013 at 4:26 am#164767AnonymousInactive
I am still trying to figure this out. I have been on sites for 2 months and it is helping. Maybe we can work together through this?
Let me know if you are willing to try…September 30, 2013 at 4:45 am#164743AnonymousInactive
:roflmao that was funni joe
I’ve been told recovery is not for the faint of hearts thou…lol
To luagh and cry without being loaded ?….
well, if feels like a bad acid trip
On a good day its ironic, on a good, good day it’s a paradox.lol
oh yeah..the crazy AA folks say “don’t make plans” :lmaoSeptember 30, 2013 at 4:46 am#164751AnonymousInactive
Put it away for now and trust me there are many that feel as you do.How about we see what tommorrow might bring us. Goodness knows, I feel your pain.September 30, 2013 at 5:00 am#164762AnonymousInactive
Defiance is another character trait common to Alcoholics. This reminds me of me when I was younger. I guess I hadn’t done enough damage yet. Now that I’m older and realize I have hurt myself and others I decided to change. Thank God it wasn’t too late. I put my unhealthy attitude away. Somewhere where hopefully I will never find it again.September 30, 2013 at 5:09 am#164753AnonymousInactive
You should go to a meeting and find that tattooed, muscle shirted, gold chain dripping, puffed up Guido and punch him in the back of the head. It might not solve all your problems but I’m sure for a few seconds it’ll make you feel like A Big Man.
Seriously, though, sobriety’s not for everybody. If sitting down in the privacy of your own home burning fatties and chugging booze is a major ambition of yours, weigh the pros and cons and make a decision. If you decide that’s not the way you want to go, then come back here and ask for support.September 30, 2013 at 5:34 am#164756AnonymousInactive
Hey, booboo…. You know Guido is my truckin’ bud. Don’t hate me dog. I’m just playin’. Can’t we all just be freaks and get along? I love you brother.September 30, 2013 at 6:18 am#164746AnonymousInactive
what the hell?September 30, 2013 at 6:18 am#164764AnonymousInactive
All the best zJoe99,your a funny old rascal.Sure you can use your sarky humour to drag yourself through this.September 30, 2013 at 6:26 am#164744AnonymousInactive
@barb dwyer 1505594 wrote:
what the hell?
what you do mean wt hell ??
havn’t you been there before ? :lmao
it’s call…..incomprehenciable demoralizations.
you know… the johny barlycorn stuff..lol
or the devil may care fella…..
becuase it’s always darkest before day light.September 30, 2013 at 6:46 am#164747AnonymousInactive
oh. ok. I think I get it.
Thought for a minute I’d been insulted. By a coward. Okay then.September 30, 2013 at 7:53 am#164740AnonymousInactive
if you can stop your own knuckles from dragging for just a bit…
When your ready, will you be my sponsor?September 30, 2013 at 12:46 pm#164754AnonymousInactive
Don’t quite understand your post.
I take my sobriety seriously…Dying in active alcoholism is no laughing matter…I HAVE suffered enough pain and chose life…September 30, 2013 at 1:16 pm#164763AnonymousInactive
Joe…If you want to get sober, which it appears you do…you can do it. You are not doomed to die a horrible death if the path you choose is not AA.
I use to be a martial artist, and was told that the first 3 moves I learned would be all I needed to defend myself BUT I chose to learn more because I loved it…The reason I tell you this is because what keeps me sober today is the first thing I learned in AA…..Don’t pick up no matter what. If you practice this EVERYDAY without fail you will be sober. Hang in there remain true to who you are and reach out for help if you need it…Best of luck!!!September 30, 2013 at 2:26 pm#164759AnonymousInactive
What an excellent example of another pompous, social degenerate, uniquely selfcentered, godcomplexed, pour me another whinning drunk looking for attention. What an excellent post of pure BS. If you get sober and stay sober, you will have the opportunity to help many. First though, maybe you can take that Godgiven marvelous mind and that creative and ingenious vocabulary and start writing out your First Step. Just a suggestion of course. Oh by the way, did you honesty think you were a one of a kind? LOL Keep writing!
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