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- May 12, 2017 at 1:30 pm#42816AnonymousInactive
A very strange thread title I’m sure, but I really wanted too share this.
I lost my father last year very suddenly, we were all very distraught, it was not due to an alcohol related disease though. I loved him, he was a great man and wish he was still here physically, but I know he lives on in my heart.
He was in his early sixties, still worked hard, and was in fantastic shape, the man had six pack abs! He a great inspiration to me, and me and him always used to share beers together. He drank a lot, but could go from 7 days straight, to nothing for a month, I never understood how he did it.
He bought a 30 pack 3 days before he was in the hospital, and we were having some together like we usually did, there we about 14 left in the case, and a few days later he went to the hospital, and 2 days later he was suddenly gone. A healthy man, the greatest man I ever knew, gone, in an instant.
I was distraught, and didn’t know how to cope. I was going through drink like no tomorrow. I found the case with 14 in them and drank 13 of them. I could bring myself to drink that last beer that was from the case that me and him shared together, and I still have it to this day, I quit but eventually relapsed, and whenever I ran out on a certain night, I’d look at that beer, but could not bring myself to drink it, no matter what.
I still have it, sitting in my computer desk drawer where I do my work from home, and look at it from time to time when I need encouragement NOT too drink. Go figure, I look at beer to not want a beer? But it makes me realize that he’s watching down on me and saying “Don’t do it son, the world took me early, and if you continue your destruction patterns, it will take you as well”.
I think it’s great if we can all an item that we can look at or hold to remind ourselves that life is better with sobriety, I understand that it is extremely unorthodox that my item is my addiction itself, but whatever works, right? Sorry for rambling, I just really felt the urge to share this.
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