And I have no shame in saying so. I suck. I fail. My life is so much better than it was this time last year and yet, I have not quit drinking entirely. It’s the last hurdle to the life I want. I try to change my perspective. I have emotional and neurological issues that I am trying to address but I am very frustrated with my lack of ability to get a handle on just this one thing. Drinking calmed my mind enough to be able to do many things, but at this time it does not work for me. Sorry to whine, I am just a bit down. It’s a beautiful winter day and I will perk up- but boredom is my worst enemy and I am often bored because I may have a bit of ADD. And that leads to drinking. How to tackle boredom when you can’t concentrate? I want to be healthy.