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  • #160755
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    LOL normies wouldn’t get why I’m *killing* myself LAUGHING over here….
    thanks BD

    :lmao

    D

    #160756
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    A complete and thorough first step alleviated all of those gray areas I had regarding the drinking game. Some of those you are posting here. The ” why can’t I just drink like normal people” and “maybe it will be different this time, afterall, I haven’t had a drink in a while” or ” I’ve educated myself on alcoholism, I know better now” The list goes on. And they are lies that my alcoholic mind tell me to justify the insanity of the first drink. Some of us, me included, had to go back out there after a period of sobriety to be convinced that we will NEVER be able to drink like normal people. Last weekend I was out on the lake with some other alcoholics and we cruised through an area called “cocktail cove”. Now in years past I would view all the partying and be saying to myself ” That looks like fun, I wish I could be partying liek that again ” Still resistant to a complete life without alcohol. But today, I look at that scene, utter drunkeness, complete with thong bikini clad women funneling beer, and the first thought I have is…..I’m just not impressed. I’ve done it all before. And I know all about that. What I don’t know about is recovering from a fatal disease. And that is what I am impressed with today. Working with other alcoholics to recover from a seemingly hopeless state of mind, body and spirit. If you hope you can drink, then I hope it for you. But if think you are an alcoholic and want recovery, there is a solution.

    #160751
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    Barb, that was way too FUNNY! (ROFLMAO)!

    One Drink !? What’s the point!!??

    (sounds like the way my better half drinks, one or two and she’s out like a light)

    Thanks for the laugh, and Murph, that was NOT how I drank!

    Also, I have heard folks say that they would rather err on the side of sobriety, at least that way you might miss some of the “”good times”” but you will never be hung over, never get a DUI, never get locked up for drunk and disorderly, never have liver disease, never wind up with family that won’t have anything to do with you…

    HHHMMMmmmmm…

    #160744
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    Groucho ! (good to see ya)

    yeah – she’s ‘on a binge’ … she’s had A beer every day for …three days.

    I have no idea what that’s all about.

    #160764
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    It takes what it takes…

    hopefully watching you she may see recovery works

    #160773
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    Oh I’m so with you, I too want to be a “normie”, unfortunately as much as I try to “control” havign 1 or 2 beers, within 3 days I’m drinking 1 or 2 cases again. You are here because you already figured it out, you can’t CONTROL your drinking, it controls YOU! Just take a bit and think about the past time you have said “I’m only going to have a beer or two” how did that work out? I’m thinking not very well or you wouldn’t be here:) I had dreams all night about drinking and so wanted a beer when I woke up because it tasted so good in my dream!

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    @mrsmurph 1484059 wrote:

    But I don’t want to get worse either. Someone on this forum put it best “addiction is like an elevator, some are lucky enough to get off on an upper floor, while some of us ride all the way to the bottom”. I just want to be able to drink sometimes and not others. Or have like 2 beers watching the game instead of 8, or A glass of wine with dinner, not the whole bottle. Maybe I can? I really really want to. Everybody else can, maybe if I exercised a little willpower and self control instead of my old I don’t give a fk attitude?

    Ugh, I don’t know what to do

    I know exactly what you mean. I would like to have a beer watching a game or go for a couple of drinks after work. The thing is, if 1 beer makes me feel nice and 2 makes me feel twice as nice, 8 will make me feel 8 times as nice. It’ll also make me ill. I had to re-sit that lesson about 10,000 times before it actually dawned on me what I had to do, whether I liked it or not.

    #160759
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    I had 47 days sober until last Friday/Saturday…..I said hey, just chill for a while, drink some raw teas…they won’t get me drunk etc….3 were in the house…well when the 3 were gone did I stop?…no and frankly I never intended to deep down…woke Saturday and started drinking again…I cannot drink at all..I drink to get drunk…period. If you can have 2-3 and stop, then cool…not for me.

    #160762
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    Brilliant Barb. That really bought a smile to my face too 🙂

    #160772
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    @mrsmurph 1484059 wrote:

    But I don’t want to get worse either. Someone on this forum put it best “addiction is like an elevator, some are lucky enough to get off on an upper floor, while some of us ride all the way to the bottom”. I just want to be able to drink sometimes and not others. Or have like 2 beers watching the game instead of 8, or A glass of wine with dinner, not the whole bottle. Maybe I can? I really really want to. Everybody else can, maybe if I exercised a little willpower and self control instead of my old I don’t give a fk attitude?

    Ugh, I don’t know what to do

    Mrs. M, I wish I could be that way, too, and have often fooled myself into thinking I could. Problem is that on a rare occasion, I can. Most other times it turns into a bottle or two of wine or a six-pack or two. Self-control is a tough thing, but mine usually goes right out the window after the first drink…

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    But I don’t want to get worse either. Someone on this forum put it best “addiction is like an elevator, some are lucky enough to get off on an upper floor, while some of us ride all the way to the bottom”. I just want to be able to drink sometimes and not others. Or have like 2 beers watching the game instead of 8, or A glass of wine with dinner, not the whole bottle. Maybe I can? I really really want to. Everybody else can, maybe if I exercised a little willpower and self control instead of my old I don’t give a fk attitude?

    “The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death. “

    Been there done that. Bought the T-shirt. ;)I

    hope you find out soon, and make a decision one way or the other.

    Alcohol’s sneaky, it sneaks up on you. I just woke up one day, 40 something, a full blown alcoholic that would go into withdraw if I didn’t have booze in me. At least, that’s how it seemed….

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