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- December 28, 2016 at 8:27 am#41197AnonymousInactive
Hi everyone. Am in the UK and have been awake most of the night. Spent the day with family yesterday and could hardly function by the end of the day – did not drink but was so tempted. My father sexually abused me up until I was 15 (only finished because he died) and my mother goes on and on about what a great dad and husband he was (my sister also engages in this). My husband knows about my childhood but his family do not – they just see me getting more and more withdrawn and snappy – oh how I wish I could just shout “he was an evil b*****d” – I can’t – my mother is in her 80s and I have no idea if she really knew (I am terrified that she did and did nothing). I am crying as I write this – the pain is almost unbearable, drink made it bearable but I WILL NOT DRINK TODAY. I used to think that I could not face these problems without a drink – I know that I can but I also know that it is going to be a long difficult road and just right now I am indulging in a little self pity.
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