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- May 25, 2016 at 8:31 am#39364AnonymousInactive
I was doing so well. I was in the chat room last night talking about my iPad and how it’s helped me keep my mind occupied. I was 10 days sober last night.
However, I gained today on the stock market. I’ve been unemployed for a year (partial reason for me drinking), but have been buying and selling stocks, breaking even and doing o.k. But, after today’s big bust through I’m up A LOT. A LOT A LOT. Capitalization doesn’t even do this justice. I was at home, and my buddies called me when they heard market close.
So, I was taken from my house by my 3 best friends, they know I’m recovering, but didn’t care.
So…I went to a bar tonight, it’s been 11 days since my last drink. Usually, after a day like today I would be 13+ drinks deep right now. Fortunately, I only had 3 shots and 2 beers tonight, about 1/2 of what I would normally drink.
I feel like I’ve failed, but I wanted to share my “success” with someone, and I had a designated driver for tonight.
Either way, I’ve failed and I’d love to hear what someone in my position would do. I guess I have to head to A.A. to learn how to cope with days like today.
Thank you for listening. At least I’m able to actually type this out. Usually, I’m 4x’s as drunk at this point. So, I guess I’ve had some sort of “break through.”
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