I have been having such a hard time lately. I have almost 3 years sober and the last two years have been so rough. I had several surgeries, family members passed on, I’m in a dead end job, my marriage is shaky. But my cat dying so suddenly and so young is just so hard for me.

I am not really at risk of drinking, I don’t think, but I am just struggling so hard right now. I can’t believe she’s gone. She was so young. I miss her so much. I hurts like hell. I just want to drown the pain. I won’t but goddamnit I want to.

:c020: