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    I clearly remember my first days going to meetings. I was so much in a fog I couldn’t remember not one name or a face. I couldn’t look anyone in there eyes. I wanted a cup a coffee so bad but I was so scared. I had the shakes so bad I couldn’t hold a cup of coffee in my hands without spilling half the cup on the floor. I was powerless holding that damn foam cup.

    One meeting turn to five and five turn to twenty. When some of the fog was lifted I started listening and watching other recovering addicts in the rooms. I wanted what they had. I almost had two months going to the meetings before I started to read the 12 steps. When I read the 1st step I completely surrendered to the disease of addiction. I now have three and a half years under my belt.

    Going to meetings was my first priority. Going to meetings and being around other addicts give me the will power… and that is the key words here…the will power… not to use in early recovery. The last thing on my mind was the steps or god or higher power. I just came off of a three and a half years addiction. I was self centered, closed minded, unmanageable, deliberately destructive to myself, hopeless, denial, incapable of living in the now, my perception of reality was non excitant. I was overly sensitive to what is happening around me, ( anxiety / depression ) I was un trustful on making decision for myself. The last thing I needed to worry about was god, higher power or the 12 steps.

    What was your experience like the first time you went to a meeting.

    Ivan

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    I finally felt like other people knew my crazy thinking and that I wasn’t alone…almost like comming home in a way

    #161437
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    Thanks for your share, I definelty is scary the first time. I dont remember which one was my first meeting but I do recall one. I was sick and shakey and the whole deal too. Couldnt get cleaned up for the meeting even, I didnt go on my own so I basically wasnt ready to hear anything. I thought there would be judgment and tomatoes thrown at me. Now I love meetings and cant stay clean without them

    #161439
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    @Timebuster 1491513 wrote:

    What was your experience like the first time you went to a meeting.

    It was weird getting a smile and a hug by the greeter. Didn’t have a lot of that growing up.

    #161441
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    honestly?

    I thought, thank god I am not one of these people. I was very judgemental of some of the people there. But I kept going back anyway. I was desperate. I cried a little at the meeting but I maintained my distance. A lady reached out to me and I thought that was kind. It took a while to sink in but I knew it worked for other people, so I wanted to give it a chance. Life or death.

    #161443
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    My first experience with NA was during the time I spent in rehab. I attended meetings outside the facility (during stage 3 of the program, if I remember correctly) along with other addicts from the same program. We were encouraged to attend as many meetings as possible so that we could have a “home group” after we completed the Rehab. Program. (We were introduced to many “tools” while in rehab, NA was only one of them).

    I remember feeling a bit overwhelmed by the large number of people at these meetings. I found the overall atmosphere rather surreal and somewhat unnatural. I didn’t quit understand all the religious talk and what part that all played in a support group and I especially could not relate to the 12steps. I already had my own religion, which served me well. What made me even more uncomfortable was being approached in a “too friendly” manner and all the hugging that was seemingly expected. I found that odd. I attended a few and decided it wasn’t for me.

    What I did like was hearing stories of how people did change their lives for the better. I found that inspiring.

    #161442
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    My first 12 step meeting was Al-Anon, I had false expectations and thought they were there to tell me how to fix my hb. That was a quick reality check..but one I truly needed. I began to work the 12 steps with a sponsor but it wasn’t for me either, I wasn’t ready or willing? (being honest)
    but I do remember meeting some great people that I would continue (to this day) to stay in touch with.
    Later I was exposed to AA and NA through my then hb. I was not comfortable listening to all the horror / war stories.. I was anything but inspired, I left each meeting sick to my stomach.
    I will say this, it caused me to look at my drinking and made me realize I was heading in the wrong direction, I was bound and determined NOT to have to make these meetings my new addiction. I instead turned to a therapist and I also do group therapy. I did try and approach AA from MY own recovery but again, I just wasn’t comfortable mixing religion with my recovery. I prefer to keep the two seperate.

    #161436
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    I remember being kinda freaked out.

    #161444
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    I will say this, it caused me to look at my drinking and made me realize I was heading in the wrong direction, I was bound and determined NOT to have to make these meetings my new addiction.

    Good point. That’s how it was for me too.
    I developed my own recovery plan and continued refinning it as I got strong and learned more about myself and the world around me. I’ve never fit into a “one size” fits all anything.

    #161438
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    This is going to sound terrible; the people were really nice, but I was still going through w/ds so I spent most of it in the ladies room, lol.

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