Hello all…I’m new to the website and I like it so far. I’ve been clean since November 29, 2004.
Let me give you all a little background. I was a recreational/weekend user of coke and meth for 15 years. As I’m sure is the case with a lot of you, that weekend use gradually turned into once/twice during the week and ultimately….daily use….which ruined 2 marriages and my business. Without a business and unable to hold a job, I had to get “creative” in order to fund my $100 day habit. My problem is that I’m harboring a massive amount of guilt over what I did to get the money. I basically took advantage of a lot of really good, trusting people and attempting to re-pay them could lead to significant legal trouble (I’m already doing 5 years probation for the things I WAS caught on).
I have no idea what to do to make this right. Any advice would be appreciated.