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- July 13, 2016 at 1:32 am#39766AnonymousInactive
My drinking has been getting progressively more out of control for the past several years. I have drank pretty consitantly since I was a teenager, 35 now. I used to consider myself a social drinker, but not anymore.
I now drink at home, a lot. I can’t tell you how many empty bottles of Vodka I have hidden in my trash over the past year. I have tried to quit several times. My drinking has caused me a lot of pain, both physically and emotionally. SO WHY CAN’T I QUIT???
I will go a week or two and then think to myself… “it’s been a rough day, I’ll just have a few drinks to take the edge off.” Or… “It’s been a great day, I’ll just have a few drinks to celebrate.”
It’s gotten to the point that I don’t even really enjoy the feeling of being buzzed anymore, but I still want to drink! I get terrible, terrible hangovers and I still want to drink! I lose my temper and say things I shouldn’t to my family, and I still want to drink!
Why is this beating me? I don’t want to be this person. I’m scared.
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