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    Hello:

    Posted a few times on here back when I was battling opiates. I was fairly successful at first. Very difficult but managed over a year without any narcotics. Since that year, I’ve slipped a couple times and once again found myself staring this dragon in the face.

    It’s been a while now and feeling good again, all up until a couple days ago; during my first, long and taxing detox, I kept everything to myself and told noone. My family thought I had the flu. It was tough but also truly believed I didn’t deserve the support either and needed to wander through the rather dark place by myself. After all, I had been getting loaded by myself, so how could I cry for help now? Well, folks on this board urged me to better my chances of staying sober by revealing the problem to my wife. I chose to continue alone. I recently realized that for me to proceed with any type of honest life I needed to tell my wife about the problem. The problem which presented itself through money, health, sex drive, career, arguments, fights, etc. You know the story. Even though I feel I will honestly never be in the same hole I was, my wife DESERVED to know everything. She had been wondering if it were her that had changed. If she had done something wrong. She always felt there was a missing factor, just didn’t know what it was. If I truly loved this woman (which I do), I could not watch her continue to think that SHE is the one going crazy. I also knew she deserved to know where all of our money had gone. So, i recently told[/CODE] her, even though part of me was still convinced it would be better to let it go. Sweep it under the rug. Take it to my grave.

    She wants me out, naturally. It’s over she has made it clear, and I believe her. Contradictory to my usual MO, she means what she says. I believed I was doing the right thing by telling her. I just wonder if I should have waited until the kids were a little bit older. Our daughter thought I was her hero, as did my Wife.

    There won’t be any more setbacks or relapse with the drug. When I look at the impact it has made, I think I’d rather die than ever swallow another pill.[CODE][/CODE] her, even though part of me was still convinced it would be better to let it go. Sweep it under the rug. Take it to my grave.

    She wants me out, naturally. It’s over she has made it clear, and I believe her. Contradictory to my usual MO, she means what she says. I believed I was doing the right thing by telling her. I just wonder if I should have waited until the kids were a little bit older. Our daughter thought I was her hero, as did my Wife.

    There won’t be any more setbacks or relapse with the drug. When I look at the impact it has made, I think I’d rather die than ever swallow another pill.

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