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- September 21, 2015 at 10:06 pm#37474AnonymousInactive
is actually post about the things really going on with me. I would ask for advice on withdrawal and things like that but I never really put things out there….I’ve decided to do this both on this forum and in the mtgs I’m attending…..Here’s a big one….I really struggle with obsessive thoughts…intrusive images and ideas that are quite incapacitating and really hard to deal with….like I’ll take an incident that might have occurred….like killing someone while driving drunk…and play the “what if” scenarios over and over and over in my head…it never stops, like a TV always on in the background…imagining the aftermath…the trial….the prison….the destruction of an innocent family as well as my own….the loss….and the thought will get stronger and stronger until I’m actually half convinced it really happened…even though it didn’t….it just constantly cycles in my head til the point of physical and emotional exhaustion…even though in reality it DIDN’T HAPPEN……anyone else ever struggle with this kind of repetitive thought cycling? Does it get better in time? My whole thought process/ brain behavior seems like it does what it wants despite my efforts to control it…I just don’t understand…….thanks for listening…….ROB
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