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- August 12, 2012 at 5:20 am#27678AnonymousInactive
I’ve suffered from a bad PCP addiction for 9 years now. I have been in rehab and drug treatment classes, but nothing has seemed to help. After a while I didn’t enjoy it anymore and just used it so these violent streaks and odd behavior (that came from the drug) would go away. Without PCP I felt that I would kill myself from all these bad feelings and thoughts of dysphoria I’d get. I’m not sure what to do, it’s ruined my life. It’s caused me to divorce my wife, join a Samoan street gang (which I’ve left now), and now I can only see my son once every month. I’m often told “just quit, it’s all in your head” but the thing is, it’s not. Maybe I should go back to rehab again. I’ve not left my house for a month because of how much the world around me has affected me.
PCP ruined my life and I guess this is just another lesson that drugs don’t do good in the end.August 12, 2012 at 6:44 am#106538AnonymousInactive
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings! Sorry your having such a hard time. I would say yea, definately go to rehab if you can. I don’t know much about PCP except
that it can really mess with your head for along time, I would think they
could help you deal with that in rehab.
Don’t give up, you can do it!August 12, 2012 at 9:19 am#106537AnonymousInactive
Dear Hawaiifly, I know telling you to just stop is’nt the answer. Back in the day I’ve done my share of pcp and let me tell you, seeing everything dusted is cool for only so long. My husband and I would joke years after we had done it and stopped, about seeing things dusted. But when we were dusted, I was working hard to make him stop so I did’nt have to do it anymore. We did. Cold turkey. I don’t think it’s really a pshycial addiction as much as a mental addiction. I do know you can’t go on seeing through the eyes of being on pcp. It warps everything. As you stated it has ruined your life. If you can’t stop moon walkin, I think you should hit rehab again. Because if you don’t you might replace it with something else. My husband did, I stopped he did not drugs that is, he stopped pcp. That kind of high is fun, it’s true, but you can’t go on staying like that, it has to come to an end. I know it’s not psycially calling you like other drugs, it’s all about having fun and being in another state of mind that is the draw. Take some time away from it and I know if you get your mind prepared you can love it and leave it. My husband who passed away eventually from cocaine overdose, that was his doc. I just partied with him because i loved him, and I’m not an addict, luckily for me, their good times memories and drugs did ruin my life, because it took him after years of sobriety. He did overdose speedballing coke and pcp years ago, not pretty, but he made it. Need any help just holler I’m here. Been there, done that.August 12, 2012 at 6:52 pm#106533AnonymousInactive
pcp can make things pretty odd i agree. i can’t imagine doing that all the time. idk i can’t really speak to that.
but it stood out to me that you said you haven’t barely elft your house in a month. let me tell you my man that alone will screw you up. i’ve locked myself inh for extended periods before and the world just gets wierder the longer you’re mostly by yourself. going out gets very strange in my little experience. i just got back form rehab a while ago myself and as wierd as this sounds it was nice to just be in a place with lots of other people. didn’t really matter who they were. i was pertty quiet at it, but you can’t go too long wihtout someone buggin you to talk and that ended up being really good. plus its a pretty safe place so even if you’re feeling wierd in the head it’ll be okay.
guess just agreeing with everyone else and hoping things go ok 4 u. 🙂August 13, 2012 at 12:31 am#106542AnonymousInactive
Thanks for all your replies, I feel better just to talk to people about these things. I decided to go out to the beach and the park today, to get my mind off of things. I feel much better just soaking in the beauty of nature I suppose. I mean, living in Hawaii, we’re supposed to be one of the happiest states in the USA. Thanks for the welcome and all. 🙂 I will be sure to keep you updated on my ventures in PCP (which I’ve not done for a week, but temptation is strong) and am open to any advice.August 13, 2012 at 12:36 am#106536AnonymousInactive
Jeez, I used that stuff the summer before I began college (30 years ago) and it took me a month just to be able to read again and remember any of it. It caused a good friend of mine to beat the living daylights out of his girlfriend and another to jump out of a window and kill himself. I was date raped on the stuff. Don’t pass go, don’t collect 200 dollars.. get yourself in rehab and NEVER touch that crap again!August 13, 2012 at 4:18 am#106541AnonymousInactiveHawaiiFly wrote:Thanks for all your replies, I feel better just to talk to people about these things. I decided to go out to the beach and the park today, to get my mind off of things. I feel much better just soaking in the beauty of nature I suppose. I mean, living in Hawaii, we’re supposed to be one of the happiest states in the USA. Thanks for the welcome and all. 🙂 I will be sure to keep you updated on my ventures in PCP (which I’ve not done for a week, but temptation is strong) and am open to any advice.
I just wanted to congratulate you on being extremely articulate, with great grammar and spelling, while having spent the last few years on PCP. That’s amazing!! If I did that, my brain would be so fried I wouldn’t even be able to see straight, let alone form coherent thoughts.
So, you see, you’re not too far gone. You can pull through this. Maybe another stay in rehab is the way to go … see about maybe taking some medication, perhaps.
Good luck!August 13, 2012 at 6:09 am#106543AnonymousInactive
Thanks, I remember talking to Dog the Bounty Hunter (no, I wasn’t on TV) over the phone via request of my sister and he told me of these meds when I told him I used dope. (I was spending a bit in jail for robbery, where there I still used PCP) What exactly is the name of these meds? I was never actually able to look into them.
And as a little side note, next time I am to use PCP (or any other drug for that matter) I think I will check myself into a rehab immediately. I’ll probably get some advice against this, but I’m pretty sure if I put my mind into it hard enough I can quit on my own.August 14, 2012 at 5:14 am#106539AnonymousInactiveHawaiiFly wrote:And as a little side note, next time I am to use PCP (or any other drug for that matter) I think I will check myself into a rehab immediately. I’ll probably get some advice against this, but I’m pretty sure if I put my mind into it hard enough I can quit on my own.
I never use da kine, maybe pakalolo in small kid time. So I dunno about PCP.
Going to rehab is akamai . . . do some internet research on withdrawals from da kine to help to quit on your own. Or make an appointment with an addictionologist, maybe at the Straub Clinic . . . 😉 Whatevahs!
Hawaii-nai is no ka oi. Enjoy the beauty around you and the beauty of clear thinking without da kine. Life is terrific! Ho-o-mana-wah-nui.
Give ’em, Brah!
Good luck & aloha.
– Wun Dum Haole
PS: I miss my opihi & manapua . . . . crack seed & tae gu po.August 14, 2012 at 12:13 pm#106532AnonymousInactive
English only please :c031:August 14, 2012 at 12:57 pm#106540AnonymousInactivePeter wrote:English only please :c031:
Does that include Pidgin English?
😉August 14, 2012 at 5:42 pm#106534AnonymousInactive
my buddy is moving to hawaii next week and is really jazzed. i bet it is beautiful over there. i hope things go well so you can keep on enjoyin it.June 5, 2013 at 9:49 pm#106544AnonymousInactive
Well everyone, it’s hard to imagine it’s been nearly a year already! Life moves quickly. But let me tell you, since my last update it’s been a relatively great year. I’m out of the drugs, crime, mental illness, and everything else I basically manifested on myself in search of a good time. That is not to say everything is fine and dandy, life still has its trials and tribulations, “good times, bad times” type of thing, but that is part of life. Since my last update, I’ve went on to give speeches in schools about the dangers of ice (meth) and other illegal drugs. Hopefully, I can educate others to not take on the wrong road I took on.
AlohaJune 6, 2013 at 5:09 pm#106535AnonymousInactive
What a great thing to see you got that monkey off your back!!!! Right on!! Keep posting your experience can help many others here!! Keep it up!!
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