Soooo… really… is early recovery this hard for everybody? I have 12 days and not a single one of them has been what I would call effortlessly sober. I think about drinking/not drinking a lot. Mostly it’s about why I can’t, what I’m doing differently, the bad excuses I used to drink in the past. If I keep that stream of chatter up, I scare the cravings away; if I let it quiet down, I catch myself having drinking fantasies. And I have a lot going on right now, so it’s like having a split mind: One half is going on about life, the other is saying “nodrinkingnodrinkingnodrinking” in a hundred different ways.
Is this in any way normal? When will sobriety become more natural? I’d like as specific deadline as possible please. 😛