I have struggled with lots of alcohol and drug addiction over the last 15 years and I have been able to walk away from certain substances yet others have a real hold on me.
Today, pot seems to be my last huge vice to get over. My main DOC is xanax and I struggle with my recovery from these pills. For some reason I have a very hard time not smoking any pot. I guess another DOC of mine is also pot then too…
When I was in treatment for xanax the doctor told me there is nothing i can do to help me quit smoking pot except quit smoking pot.
I keep telling myself today will be the last day I smoke and then tomorrow will come, I get terrified of being sober, and I cave.
There have been times when I would make it almost a complete 24 hours without smoking and then give in during the last hour.
I know I can beat this but I just can’t believe how something like pot can have such a strong hold on me.