I have been sober for right around a year. I say that because I am not exactly sure when I quit cheating with maybe just one or two. I take 1/2 of a suboxone daily. I have never gone to a meeting, never have tried to work a program. I have been reading a lot. Even though I am not actively taking pills or drinking, descriptions of feelings and things that I am doing still seem to apply. I don’t know enough about addiction or recovery to really know what is up or down. I have a million questions, but don’t know what to ask. I have thought all along that I could do this by myself. It has become very obvious that isn’t working. Even though I don’t know what I want to know, can someone offer any advice?