I haven’t felt real hurt in awhile. When I felt it today my heart just broke. I am grateful that I have friends and this place(as of yesterday) that God has just super blessed me with. But today when my heart broke apart I forgot all about these wonderful things and went shopping and came home with stuff I didn’t need…I don’t have the strength to get rid of it. My mom called me today to tell me they were putting my dog down. I knew it was coming but hadn’t prepared myself. I don’t know what to do with myself right now. I seem to have the rationality of like a 4 year old right now….