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- September 25, 2013 at 8:04 pm#31078AnonymousInactive
I was doing so good I thought but the stress of being laid off from my job and my downside of my relationship got the best of me. Well at least I let it get the best of me and turned to drinking again to try and forget about it!! GRRRRR! I just wanna be normal and healthy again!! What’s wrong with me, why do I feel so week!!!! :wtf1:September 25, 2013 at 8:29 pm#163637AnonymousInactive
@Mama~D 1498895 wrote:
IWhat’s wrong with me, why do I feel so week!!!! :wtf1:
You have the disease of alcoholism that is what is wrong with you. It is a disease that is extremely difficult to fight alone. I have never met anyone that could do it by themselves but there may be some out there.
One of the paradoxes of A.A. is that accepting our weakness (inability to fix the disease) brings us the beginning of the strength to fight the disease.
“Weakness” = “strength”
There is hope as long as you keep getting back up and starting over. Today is a new day, what happened yesterday can not be changed, what will happen tomorrow is too unpredictable to worry about. All you have is right now, today.
Try starting with that. Just don’t drink right now. Don’t worry about the rest as it will come as long as you don’t drink right now. Remember “if you don’t drink you don’t get drunk”. Sounds kind of silly but it is very true.
If you have not started one of the many recovery programs out there I would suggest starting one today. It is to easy to put if off and then wind up drunk again.
Keep posting, I look forward to your update.
Remember we are all weak in some respects, weakness is only a deficit when we fail to accept it and ask for the help we need.September 25, 2013 at 8:36 pm#163638AnonymousInactive
A couple of quotes that help me when I feel weak.
Learn what it means, “When I am weak, then I am strong.” Gather confidence thus… No lack in the universe but there is a supply. The deeper the pit, the readier are the waters to fill it.
Amos R. Wells
It is the greatest of all mistakes to do nothing because you can only do a little. Do what you can.
Hope you find some strength in them too.September 25, 2013 at 8:59 pm#163628AnonymousInactive
Mama~D, don’t fear, I’m only 22 and I am only 36 hours off alcohol/nicotine. It’s very difficult, you should be proud how FAR you got, alcoholism isn’t exactly a disease that we can’t control, I’ve seen a lot of people go without alcohol after being huge boozers when they realize how it screwed up their lives. A little alcohol is okay sometimes or moderate, all depends on how you conduct yourself as well. Point is I’m not trying to start a flame, just saying don’t feel weak Mama~D, just remember I’m only on 36 hours without drinking after trying for like 3 years to stop.September 25, 2013 at 9:10 pm#163640AnonymousInactive
Did 1 year and then; about three weeks ago, drunk.
Still don’t know why.
Still think I can drink like normal people.
Still listening to my own crap.
Still think I’m cleverer than everyone else.
God, I am stupid.
I’ll pray for you. You pray for me.
One day this will all be over; all this pain will have passed and we’ll be free.
I’m going to give it another try tommorrow.
I’m going to try not to take a drink…just for one day.
Just for a single day.September 25, 2013 at 9:15 pm#163629AnonymousInactive
Yeez fanger don’t kill your self esteem yeez I’m sure “god” or some god would be proud if you did it alone or if you kept trying without saying “I’M STUPID!”…September 25, 2013 at 9:19 pm#163641AnonymousInactive
@Paulos 1499010 wrote:
Yeez fanger don’t kill your self esteem yeez I’m sure “god” or some god would be proud if you did it alone or if you kept trying without saying “I’M STUPID!”…
True. True. I can’t believe how it has slipped way from me.
Just gently and completely slipped way. The steps, the fellowship, the picking up the phone instead of the drink, the everything. I’ve got to start again.September 25, 2013 at 9:26 pm#163630AnonymousInactive
Sure, start again and all but *even though I hate saying this it makes me look like a piece of crap* I can’t even stay away from a drink for 48 hours, and I’ve been trying for THREE years even though I have all the logic, all the wanting to stop drinking yet I keep sinking into it, so uh… consider yourself lucky that you have willpower to keep going and the logic to realize it’s bad for you.September 25, 2013 at 9:27 pm#163631AnonymousInactive
How long were you off booze anyway? to me being off it a month would be a blessing.September 25, 2013 at 9:30 pm#163636AnonymousInactive
Maybe you are not done drinking yet. If this is the case, go try some more controlled drinking. I wish you well.September 25, 2013 at 9:31 pm#163642AnonymousInactive
@fanger 1499004 wrote:
Did 1 year and then; about three weeks ago, drunk.
Read the post man.September 25, 2013 at 9:36 pm#163632AnonymousInactive
Yea yea ok fanger christ excuuuuse me for not reading right, ahem :gets back to his civil self: You did very well to last so long… three weeks ago however you drank and like… has it been that long since you drank?September 25, 2013 at 10:03 pm#163624AnonymousInactive
Many of us had false starts before we finally quit.
I certainly did…
not until I read “Under The Influence”
(top sticky post here has excerpts)
was I able to stay sober.
Keep trying…Recovery Rocks!
:funjump:September 25, 2013 at 10:07 pm#163643AnonymousInactive
@Paulos 1499043 wrote:
Yea yea ok fanger christ excuuuuse me for not reading right, ahem :gets back to his civil self: You did very well to last so long… three weeks ago however you drank and like… has it been that long since you drank?
Put it this way…drunk now. Going to bed…will post tommorrow.
Love.September 25, 2013 at 10:45 pm#163633AnonymousInactive
Oh…. ouch. ook.
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