I’m just coming back from a relapse, and you know what? I know better. But sometimes, I really just don’t care. I know what the relapse is going to bring, misery. Nothing else. Yet as long as I don’t have to feel what I’m feeling at that current moment, it is seemingly worth it. I guess the key to sobriety is not allowing yourself to get to the point of “needing” to take a drink.
Take it from me. I first came into recovery on March 3rd, 2006. Over five years ago. I’m now working of my fifth day of sobriety. Take it from me, it ISN’T WORTH IT. Call somebody, do whatever is necessary to avoid the pain, and anguish that is a relapse. It only gets worse.