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- August 29, 2012 at 12:52 am#27745AnonymousInactive
(I MUST START BY TYPING… I HAVE RE-POSTED WHAT I ALREADY ENTERED UNDER THE “WHERE WERE YOU” FORUM… IT SEEMS TO FIT ACCORDINGLY UNDER THE SUBSTANCE ABUSE FORUM…. SO LET ME USE MY NEWNESS AS AN EXCUSS TO RE-POST THE SAME ENTRY AGAIN)
Where was I when what? I started? I wanted to quit? I found this site? I’m not sure if I am doing something wrong…. dont know much about this chatting on line. I was, I am in a place where wrong is twisted to be O.K. and so for years I’ve been in “Rome” and cant say really if I want to leave, but I can say that I know my journey in this place is over! Now how does the battle of good and evil; right and wrong play out in this tiny vessel that has no real connection with a higher power, just a yearning? I think this inner struggle will break me where I never been before and not capable of accepting that I can or will go there. Does this make sense. I know what needs to be done, afraid of doing it, afraid of not being able to do it, afraid of failing trying to do it, afraid of failing if I do it, afraid of saying how damn afraid I am. Now, damn if that doesnt size me up…..image??????? what image. The image of failing at trying to do something, for now I aint trying to do nothing and so failure is not apart of this image. Just what the people and me think we see. Women living, looking good, indulging in drugs, not screwed up on them(yeah right), and enjoying life. What an image, did you read any responsibilities? any accomplishments? any thing that sounds like a mature adult? I dont want to grow up…I’m a…. !!!! Well thats my life
I’m not sure what I typed, where I was going, what I meant, but the “[email protected]!” came in my mind and I just typed….Somebody tell me something, where does this end if I aint decided on the end, or at least I sound wishy washy to me about my end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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