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    She’s always been concerned about my drinking, which in my opinion is not that bad, but what alcoholic doesn’t think like that right? =) I probably average 4-6 beers or a 1/2bottle -1bottle of red wine each night I drink. On average I drink 6 nights a week. I don’t drink it fast. I will have the beers while I mow the lawn starting sat afternoon and have my last one later in the evening. I USED to drink a LOT more and have tried to really cut back to what I feel are reasonable/acceptable levels. She is right in saying that no normal person NEEDS to drink that much so often. I can’t argue with that fact. I just enjoy it as any alcoholic would. She’s of the mindset that if you want to have a drink you should have maybe 1-2 and that’s it.

    Anyway, she was giving me **** this morning about my cholesterol and saying “Gee, what do you think your doctor would say about the beer and your cholestorol?” And that pretty much started her rant, to which I always agree and say yes, I need to watch myself more closely. But today was the first time she used the word “alcoholism” with me. It was kind of a slap in the face, but was probably needed. I got defensive of course and my blood started to boil, but I kept telling myself that she’s only saying these things because she loves me and doesn’t want me to be sick or die. It does embarass me to think she talks about me like that to her mother, which I’m sure she does.

    That being said, I’m a relatively healthy person, 31 years old, 195 lbs, 6’1″ tall, good job, first kiddo is 9 months old, have a nice home in a nice town and just a great life all around. So why do I focus so much on the drink? Why do I get these giddy little sensations when I’m on my way home from work and I know I can kick back with a bottle of wine and watch my favorite show on TV? It’s a sickness, I know. It’s a mental obsession. I’ve felt that I can live a good life while still enjoying alcohol, not in excess though. But of course everyone’s opinion of excess is different and clearly my wife feels I’m all ready there.

    Just had to get that out.

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