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- December 10, 2015 at 2:34 pm#38087AnonymousInactive
Hi! I am new around here, but I have been sober and in AA for the past 13.5 months. For a while I was doing my 90 in 90 and all the good stuff that they told me to do in treatment. Things started to clear up a little bit. I worked through the steps and things got better. I really slowed down on my program, stopped going to meetings, stopped talking with other alcoholics, just stopped doing what I should have been. The past week or so, however, I have had the most overwhelming and scary feelings. The feeling that I am living my life in a dream, or that I’m watching things on tv, but it’s my life, have just been incredibly overwhelming. I have gone to the psychologist, and my medical doctor (after talking to my psychologist), prescribed me to celexa. The suicidal thoughts creep in, but I am constantly talking to other alcoholics, my loved ones and my sponsor, so really, suicide is not an option. That isn’t me thinking those things. It is such a scary feeling to not feel like things are real, and I am hoping that it will be taken care of by getting back on my program and taking this medication. If anyone has any experience, strength and hope with these feelings I would really appreciate it. I hope these are just by-products of the depression, but I feel like I’m the only person to ever experience this. PLEASE HELP! haha
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