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- September 21, 2013 at 4:10 am#31034AnonymousInactive
Hi I’m new here, and looking for some help.I work in the Holistic health industry and years ago I found an herb called Kava kava.The problem is once a week I consume three bottles of it within a couple of hours to give me a great, but addictive high.
At one point I was doing this nightly years ago until I fell down waking up my wife and ending up in the hospital.
The high is very addictive to me I want to stop because I feel like total crap for a couple of days after I do this, and I know I’m hurting my body just like any other drug.The day after I do it I say that’s it no more, and I get excited to quit and not do it again, but sure enough the next week on my day off when the wife is working late I see my window of oppurtunity and do it.How do I stop I don’t seem to have it in me?
I should also add that when I do it I also involve looking at internet porn as all my sences seem hightened somewhatSeptember 21, 2013 at 4:42 am#161527AnonymousInactive
Welcome to 12 Step National Meetings. It sounds like Kava has taken over with the cravings. I tried it once and liked the feeling, but it wasn’t my particular vice. I’m sure it reaches your pleasure center in your brain, and makes everything more entertaining, including internet porn.
As with any addiction, for there to be recovery, you have to want it fully. There should be no deceit about it. A lot of people need to hit bottom to fully want to change, though some heed the writing on the wall.
There are many avenues for you to recover. Are there physiological withdrawal symptoms? Is it mostly psychological?
After you quit using Kava, how will you manage your recovery? Therapy, NA meetings, Outpatient treatment?
These are some of the questions that you need to ask yourself, even though you may feel ambivalent about quitting. Sobriety is a good choice, but you have to make that decision.
Keep posting.September 21, 2013 at 4:49 am#161529AnonymousInactive
The writing is on the wall, and has been for years, but how the heck do I make myself want to stop more than I do?I know that sounds like a crazy question I guess I just don’t understand fully.I’m only doing it the one day so there are no withdrawal symptoms.As for treatment I would be doing this on my own as I did with alcohol, and pot in the past.My wife can’t know that I’ve been doing this as it would result in the end of our marriage.September 21, 2013 at 5:05 am#161522AnonymousInactive
Alcohol, pot, and now this stuff and soon porn addiction?
Have you ever tried meetings? AA or NA meetings?
Those of us with addiction personalities can tend to stop one thing and replace it with another. The things we can learn at AA or NA meetings sure do help us change and deal with things a lot better. Herbal, street, or a Dr RX… a drug is a drug and meetings sure can help us. Have a look about and read over the posts that say “sticky” beside them that are located at the top of the forums. You may find something in them that clicks on a lightbulb for you.September 21, 2013 at 5:19 am#161523AnonymousInactive
Where in MA are you?
As you can see
<<<<< I am in the South Shore.September 21, 2013 at 10:29 am#161525AnonymousInactive
If the writing is on the wall, and the “track record” is one of active addiction with different substances, (including porn), the desire to stop will come. But not without a truck load of pain, and not without your wife finding out. Usually. And there are thousands of threads in here to show this happens more often than not.
There are several different ways to get support and help to quit substance abuse, but we have to want to quit first. When the desire to stop becomes bigger than the desire to continue, that’s when it happens, and at that point, any number of ways will work.
Good luck.September 21, 2013 at 11:16 am#161526AnonymousInactive
When I told my husband (more than once) about my addiction, I thought he’d walk. He didn’t. He stood beside me. Part of wanting to and staying clean is honesty and to me that means honesty to everyone in my life, especially me.September 21, 2013 at 11:33 am#161521AnonymousInactive
What best and Doug said.September 21, 2013 at 12:22 pm#161528AnonymousInactive
The longer I stay clean and sober the more I realize how much of an addictive personality I have.
I can very easily find myself in front of XBox Live for HOURS when I am not feeling quite right. I have little stickie notes on things to help me remember when I might be trying to feed that section of the brain looking for the dopamine rush
My xhb is a recovering addict and crack was his DOC, with that came the porn, finding that out the way I did was very devastating, do yourself a big favor and her, be honest with her now, you might find out that getting honest will get you one step closer to getting help, once the cat’s out of the bag it might lose it’s appeal so-to-speak. Be sure to tell your wife it’s not her fault, that’s one of the things I dealt with.. was there something I was or wasn’t doing ?
Also if you are on any other medications, be very careful of ANY herbal supplements as they can have deadly results mixing them. I dont know much about Kava Kava,
I took it a few years back but not sure I really felt anything off of it, but I do remember I was able to concentrate more so maybe with the amount your taking it is enhancing other areas of the brain ? Talk to your doctor!!September 21, 2013 at 5:21 pm#161524AnonymousInactive
Best pretty much said what I was going to. Meetings help its clear in the literature” We are not interested in what or how much you used, who your connections were, what you have done in the past, how much or how little you have but only in what you want to do about your problem and how we can help.” Hope I got that correct from memory but the point is dont think your different or wont fit in.
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