I just wanted to thank everyone that responded to my post yesterday.

Saturdays are VERY hard for me because the pain clinic doctor (who gave me my trams; is there allday; he will give me anything I want as long as I pay; he’s like a drug dealer).

I didn’t use. I took deep breaths; drank a cup of cappuccino, went up to my bedroom at took a 3 hour nap. I felt alot better.

I had to apologize to my husband because I was so nasty to him yesterday; all I wanted was my drug and he just doesn’t understand addiction at all.

I am trying so hard not to listen to this disease infested brain of mine but it’s so hard.

It is also so hard because Tramadol is so easy to buy over the internet. There are thousands of websites where you don’t need a script.

:Val004: to you all..