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    Anonymous
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    Hi everyone,

    I saw the therapist today. She asked alot of questions and I answered her honestly.

    Then, we started talking about “issues.” Low self esteem, depression, anxiety, unhappy marriage, insomnia, horrible childhood….the list goes on and on.

    In the car I felt the urge to get my prescription of Ultram filled. The urge must have been from talking about “the issues.”

    I stayed strong and just drove home.

    I know in the future talking about all of the issues is going to make me want to use; BUT I am determined to get better and stay off of that poison.

    I am proud of myself for not getting that script filled..

    I am staying strong and really feel good right now; physically and emotionally.

    If I had gotten that script filled I would have just downed the pills gotten high and felt like cr#p tommorrow. What’s the friggin point?? I would have been ashamed and would have posted about a relapse.

    Today is one whole week without Ultram and day 5 without OD’ing on my benzos.

    Just thought I would share.

    Liz
    AKA-Lizrox :flow:

    #106307
    Anonymous
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    Coming into recovery, most of us have a lot of issues to deal with. I can relate to every one you mentioned. They can be triggers, and other things can be triggers as well. There was something I noticed about your post:

    Lizrox wrote:
    In the car I felt the urge to get my prescription of Ultram filled.
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    I am proud of myself for not getting that script filled..
    Quote:
    If I had gotten that script filled I would have just downed the pills gotten high and felt like cr#p tommorrow.

    Three times, you mentioned getting the ‘script filled. Wouldn’t it be easier if you didn’t have that option? If it’s a paper prescription, you can just get rid of it. If it’s a refill at the pharmacy, you can ask your doctor to rescind it. Then, filling the ‘script is not an issue. That’s one trigger removed.

    Just a suggestion. I know that it’s hard to let go of things, but they’re usually signs of reservations. When we make a decision to stop and cut those ties, it gets us that much closer to recovery.

    I’ll say a prayer for you. Right now.

    Take care, Liz

    Peace & Love,
    Sugah

    #106308
    Anonymous
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    That’s a big issue therapists have to deal with.
    There are a lot of issues they are careful in talking
    to me about also, because of how I may react when I
    get out.

    Did your therapist give you an emergency number to page her,
    or other options?

    I’d make sure and tell her that you were close to slipping next time
    you meet with her.
    That way she’ll know to help you through it in your next session before you leave.

    Just my thoughts.

    #106309
    Anonymous
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    btw, I should have said at first,
    CONGRATS ON NOT USING!

    THAT IS AWESOME! GOOD FOR YOU!

    #106310
    Anonymous
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    I’m proud of you Lizrox. I know you can do this. I have moments in each day when I get that urge to use again, and it usually revolves around remembering some bad thing that happened in my life. When that happens, I just tell my “animal brain”, the part of the human brain that controls addiction, to shut up (a helpful tip I picked up on this board). Anyway, I’m glad to hear you’re doing well.

    #106306
    Anonymous
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    I am proud of myself for not getting that script filled..

    And I’m proud of you too. Congrats on a job well done.

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