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- September 12, 2013 at 8:11 am#30953AnonymousInactive
Back again everybody with another withdrawal. Today is day 4 but I took so much disulfiram I won’t be able to drink for a couple of more days.
After the 40 days of soberity in July/August I had a period where after a binge I thought I could drink normally again, then I quit for a couple of days, another binge, another withdrawal, well you all know the story.
But in the end of August/September things started going the wrong way again with 13 straight drinking days.
The strange thing is that things are actually going well. I joined a football (soccer for you yanks 😉 ) team for the first time since 8 years and I met a lot of new buddies, my anixety is much less and I am following CBT therapy and I also have a new fun (part-time) job.
So why keep on drinking? Well I couldn’t think of any good reason so I quit!
Just wish me luck and I am doing my best (taking the disulfiram daily) to stay sober!
That’s all I wanted to share 🙂September 12, 2013 at 9:25 am#160283AnonymousInactive
Nakur I wish you all the luck in the world this time, for this alcoholic I found that if I changed nothing about me as a person even when I was not drinking I was still a drunk and as a result every time I quit drinking and changed nothing about me as a person I was going to start drinking again just like I used to. This was a pattern I followed for 10 years…… well actually less then that because the last 2-3 years I drank I had to drink everyday just to feel normal and function.
The last time I quit which was almost a year ago I launched into a plan of action to change myself, I have changed, I am no longer a drunk, today I am a different person who is no longer a drunk, the result of me changing myself is that I have had the urge/need to drink lifted from me, I could care less if I ever had another drink.
If you change nothing about yourself as a person, then nothing changes, that is what this alcoholic has found to be one of the keys to sobriety.September 12, 2013 at 10:06 am#160289AnonymousInactive
Hi nakur. I hope things go well for you. I agree wholeheartedly with Tazman on this. Unfortunately its not an overnight remedy, just a way of living.September 12, 2013 at 11:23 am#160288AnonymousInactive
Good luck with it nakur. I too had to find other things to do to fill the void. Exercise and sober socializing are great substitutes. I really hope CBT helps your anxiety.
Shaneo.September 12, 2013 at 1:23 pm#160284AnonymousInactive
Glad to see you Nakur,
If nothing changes,
Nothing changes…September 12, 2013 at 7:23 pm#160281AnonymousInactive
Good to see you are again sober!
🙂September 12, 2013 at 10:00 pm#160291AnonymousInactive
Welcome back, nakur! It sounds like you are making many positive changes – exercising, socializing, therapy, etc. When I was first sober, people often told me that changing my playmates and my playground (like you are doing!) was a key to remaining sober. For me, another key was attending AA meetings – so I had some tools under my belt for the times when I wasn’t feeling so confident about not drinking.
We are glad you are here 🙂September 13, 2013 at 7:30 pm#160292AnonymousInactive
Welcome back!!! Thank you for rejoining us and for letting us know it still don’t work out there.
Happy to have you with usSeptember 14, 2013 at 10:33 pm#160286AnonymousInactive
One week sober, everything is going very well. Tomorrow my first soccer match since 8 years, I am still out of shape but perhaps I can play for 10-15 minutes 🙂September 15, 2013 at 1:08 am#160282AnonymousInactive
1 week and you are feeling more healthy!September 15, 2013 at 10:49 am#160290AnonymousInactive
Great to hear you’re still sober. Hope you enjoy your soccer match today.September 15, 2013 at 9:21 pm#160287AnonymousInactive
4-4 draw, we missed an open chance 5 meters from open goal in the last minute :(. Because I am not top-fit, I was the assistant referee. Tuesday I am starting the regular training and I hope my match debute will be next week 🙂September 15, 2013 at 9:40 pm#160285AnonymousInactive
At least you got yourself out there!
A good beginning!
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