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- May 13, 2016 at 12:40 am#39273AnonymousInactive
Rehab is REALLY expensive, guys.
I mean, REALLY expensive.
I have a job and a team of people who depend on me. So far, I haven’t jerked up my job yet. Go, me. If I left my team, they would flounder. It would be bad. And selfish. I just can’t leave them.
I can’t afford rehab. I can’t afford the time.
I could just go to meetings again. That worked for a whole week – the longest I’ve been completely clean and sober in awhile.
But I feel like getting locked up and brainwashed is the best way for me to go.
I don’t know.
Am I just trying to pass the responsibility onto someone else? Get a room in a rehab facility and not have to be accountable for getting my own butt to meetings?
I feel tired. Maybe I just need a break.
Maybe this is about me just trying to get out of taking charge of my own life.
It’s confusing … but anyway, in a perfect world, I would check myself into inpatient rehab and stay there for an entire month. Because then I could decompress and get my head on straight.
Then I feel selfish because other people don’t get to just “check out of life” for 30 days when they’re having a rough time.
There are no easy answers … and I guess that’s okay.
Anyway, that’s where I’m at today ….
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