I remember when I was in rehab they asked me what my triggers were for drinking and I jokingly answered, “sunlight,” not aware that I was speaking more truth than I realized.
I believe the entire concept of “triggers” is dangerous. It suggests that I have an ocassion-based condition, not a chronic disease. It takes an internal condition and makes it externally driven. The truth is, I drank when I was happy and sad, employed and unemployed, in a relationship or not in a relationship.
Triggers for me are an excuse not to do the fundamental work that will change me– it tells me that if I control my environment, I’ll be safe.
I have a full-time disease that requires full-time recovery.