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- December 14, 2016 at 9:17 pm#41060AnonymousInactive
Tomorrow I am 3 weeks sober. Up until today I was doing well. I had the occasional craving for a drink from time to time but they were only fleeting moments and I conquered each one by reminding myself a) the feeling will pass, b) look how far you’ve come, don’t give up now and c) alcohol has only ever brought misery to my life – it solves nothing and won’t make things any easier.
The past 3 weeks have been unbelievably stressful and I cannot believe I got through this without succumbing to booze. I keep thinking of the film ‘Airplane’ with Leslie Nielson where one of the characters says, “I picked the wrong week to quit drinking” and I can totally relate!!! 🙂
Today I feel irritable, p*ssed off and wondering “what’s the point?”. I do not attend AA because – as I’ve mentioned in previous posts – it would jepordize my career if I was even seen walking into a building holding these meetings. I am attending CBT for about a month but due to my crazy work and life schedule, I have been unable to attend for the past 2 weeks.
I guess what I’m trying to say is I’m losing motivation. I walked past the alcohol section at the food store today and looked briefly at my old, ex lover, vodka before quickly walking away. Last week I was at my work Christmas party where there was an unlimited supply of alcohol and I was fine. I just helped out the catering staff to keep myself busy and nobody questioned my not drinking as I drove to the party. I feel extremely vulnerable right now and am afraid I will break. Perhaps this is just how I’m feeling today. Perhaps tomorrow will be better. I really, really hope so 🙁
Thanks for listening.
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